.Friday, November 5, 2010 ' 4:15 PM Y
DA JIE birthday tmr. gonna celebrate with her at midnight =) hope she will love this surprise WHAHAHAHAHAH
. ' 4:15 PM Y
DA JIE birthday tmr. gonna celebrate with her at midnight =) hope she will love this surprise WHAHAHAHAHAH
.Thursday, November 4, 2010 ' 9:49 PM Y
It's been years that i did not edit my blog things. and been months nvr post things in my blog. been busy working, studying and shopping for kor kor wedding. Brother going to marry soon in 10 more days. finally can cal her da sao le and sooner or later i will have niece or nephew in few years time. I believe. hahas. going JB with brother this sat, last min plan again. =) after last trip to bangkok i haven't go oversea for so long. I really feel like leave singapore for jus one day i also happy.
by the way, finally she got her new partner. =) i hope he will treat her well and nvr make her sad anymore. =) all the best sweetie. I will try my best to meet up with u soon after all my tight schedule over. Hope u read this post. But i think u will be busy dating so no time to read this. HAHAHA
anyway i did not manage my time well, i keep on drag the day to meet her. up till now i still can't find a time to meet her at all. I hope she dun pin too much hope on me for being with her back and jus treat her like the past. truthfully speaking, I'm afraid to meet her, I really scare I don't know what should i say to her. But no matter what when all my tight schedule settle, I will try to meet her at least once. I really hope that i can arrange my time properly. I will try my best to arrange my time.
I rmb past few month i post something in my fb, someone reply it. and when i read that post, i did tears about it. But seriously i really give up all the hopes that i have. I rather not to have u anymore. I know I might need the care and listening ear from someone. But i believe u are not the one that i waiting for anymore. I know neither am i the one anymore. So ya, live happily from now on.
forth week of school, no need to change class everyday anymore but this class quite alot of smart kids, and very competitive. They are stressing me up as usual. but i always feel very fortunate to have a few of nice and good friend to help me up. they really willing to help me. I really feel so grateful. And I appreciate all their help and care. =) thanks alot. and they always willing to hear my complain and spare me a listening ear. HAHAS. ya thanks alot to all my guy and girl friends.. <3<3
my bf always give me all the care and concern, which i don't know how to appreciate it sometime. but now I want to tel you that from now on i will appreciate it. And cherish every minutes and every second of being with u. I shall not complain about him anymore. hahas. I hope i can change myself. shall not be stubborn anymore
.Thursday, September 23, 2010 ' 1:05 AM Y
been busy recently. wake up use com, work, acc friend, then reach home use com, watch drama and slp. fuck lo. been three day nvr slp well. i dunnoe is i been affected by things or i just dun use to erjie bed. force me to slp her room coz mummy slping her room to on aircon. finally today i can go back to my own room hope i can slp well. i'm super tired.
today is my third day of working. like that new working environment. =D working as receptionist at golf range. hahas. super lots of things to learn. still trying to adapt to their working style. but kind of stress when they tel me lost money u have to pay them back. stress like hell. but this is a way to learn to be responsible. =)
pay wise is good, food cheap, transport also cheap, everything best arhs. =D friendly auntie, manager, customer, coach of course coach too. hahas. :D
watch this with jiefu ytd. his company have free ticket
nice movie, but i just find that story like IPman
.Saturday, September 11, 2010 ' 3:44 AM Y
Yawn. Tiring day!! Went clubbing with dar and his friend last night. Sibei lousy drinker le. Keep feel like slping after abit of that drink. I think most likely I'm too tired plus the stupid cough and flu make me even worst. Clubbing for like 3 hrs. I really can't stand it le. So find ah Hua with dar then cab home. Clubbing is seriously not my life. Love the bass but dun love dancing at all so no point come club with them. But no choice jus wanna stick with bf like always. He always my good boyfriend plus good friend :) his smile and his care make my heart melt. Although sometime he tend to forget my thing and I will get so irritated after all he still a nice bf. Seriously cannot complain le.
Today early in the morning dad wake me up with his drill. Thanks ar. Holiday also dun wan let me rest longer. Nice father:) but anyway it's over nth I can do. He jus a weird dad. Thinking so differently from other ppl. Although I always disrespect him, but I will still concern him in other way. Wat he like I will buy it for him. So stop complaining that I'm a stupid daughter.
Today watch channel 8 show it's abt marriage thing. I was keep thinking if I could married with a guy who able to organize outdoor wedding lunch at beach I will tel him I love him sibei alot. I always wish to have this type of wedding. I hate traditional wedding. Wan me to go for traditional wedding I would rather not to married. Hope someone will fulfill my wish. But sometime I think marriage is a waste of time thing. Why must married? Jus to make sure the partner is always urs? Or just to make a promise to one another. But I find it stupid. Married le divorce then one party will sure sad, if gt child even worst. Child affected. Must as well jus be bgr like for the lifetime. Not happy break. Then find. Dun have then jus be alone lahs.
I know so many people married so early, I always feel like asking them why must they do that. I know lahs accident do happen. But do u think this marriage will work for long term? And u can't even afford to like support urself. And parent do have to help u and the child. But wat for burdens ur parent again. Hais teenage now a days do not have brain. They dun think. Their brain jus like can't work anymore. Join gang is cool but I think is stupid. Jus a nonsense things. What for u need a gang? Show off.?!?! What for u need to smoke? They dun even bother to use brain what for smoke? Stress?!? Crazy! Smoking also jus wan to show off and be cool! But all this are stupid! U should always think what for u give birth in this world. What kind of person ur parent want u to be!?! I dun think they wan a smoker child, a ahbeng or ah lian child. All the people should start to know how to think.
Jus random topic. I jus can't stand so many things happening in recent years. Parent getting more protective now a days. When we are young parent Tend to scold us or even beat us. Now parent not allow to do it. Like crazy right. Jus can't stand it
.Sunday, September 5, 2010 ' 2:21 AM Y
finally chalet and my family BBQ is over. i shall wait for chalet photo to be uploaded by yang friend then steal those photo and also waiting for bro to give us the family photo. bro tempt me to buy DSLR. idiot.! chalet i was having quite alot of fun. although i nvr get to eat much food but i think those food are nice. had so much crap with all his friend. and so many clique of friend make me feel so lost. hahas. but luckily wan ting came and acc me. and i learn to cook beef without much marinate needed. wow yummy yummy. thanks to darrel. he is the chef of the day. teaching me how to cook nice food. So cool since young i already know saw him before until recently years then i know he is dar friend. hahas. he just leave behind my block only. okay back to chalet. dar and his didi both drunk after game. so i have to help them take care of their friend. so doing alot of cleaning too and see them play game. they are scary. they drink liquor like nobody business one. see them drink and play. i can laugh non-stop le lahs. most funny person i think is yong xiang. he drunk till he can laugh until like mad one. =.= dunnoe what to say him. horrible. took the same cab back home with him and darrel. he arhs keep making sooo much noise that i feel like killing ppl lahs. keep talk and talk non-stop. my god! anyway wan ting i really love girls talk with u! shiok shiok sia.! sry for the mistake i have made in the past. =( u are always my friend. =)
back to today family BBQ. back home at around 6.30 from chalet. mummy ask me shower and go market with her to buy things. so i went there with her till 8. finally back home slp. shag shag shag. wake up around 2 plus. stress like hell. keep doing all the things myself. finally one by one mama back follow by erjie and my bro than my dad. so my bro was crazy abt bbq that he leave hus early to get things done by buying the rest of the stuff and bring kopi for a swim at sea. after that er jie and me follow my jiefu car to the pit. hahas. so excited and get the best pit of all. hahas. i need to do this bbq again this coming oct again. for my bro birthday. =.= kind of fast arhs him. so fast wan me to book those things. crazy bro. i think all of us have lots of fun arhs. food almost finish. and i try out so many new things. next time i wanna make other things more special =D alright shall go rest already.
i always know that i'm a substitute of them. but i just insist to cling and hangout with u. coz i really wish that u could change ur mine and u are the one that i been looking for. in fact, u are not the one. u still choose others rather than me. all i can say is that its okay. i think i could find a better one. i'm still searching for a right person that always there for me. even up to today. i still couldn't find it. from the very start of secondary sch life, i found one! and i lose her. and i couldn't find anyone will be like her anymore. even if i get back her, i still wondering will we be like in the past? I know my good buddy! i really need a good girlfriend.! i will try my best to find a nice and caring girlfriend. I hope lahs.
.Wednesday, September 1, 2010 ' 3:10 AM Y
finally done with two module revision. feel so damn exhausted. Finally i realize that science is nvr easy for me to study. I think i should have take engineering. i prefer formula please. Today is teacher's day. How terrible am i that i forget that i wanted to go back secondary school. OH FUCK. nvm. i shall go back some other time. think study and preparing my bbq things is more impt to me now.
just receive the email from sci department that i eligible to go for attachment. But i was kind of sad and shock when i see the venue and the working time. 8.45 start work at jurong island. its terrible. I dun think i able to reach there soo early. if overslept take cab i think i will be broke. I dun mind i didn't get pay for this 4 week, as i really wish to get some experience from those research company. but the venue must be somewhere that is nearer or what. forget shall not think abt it.
anyway cousin intro me a job too. good pay working hours was good also. office hour only. and got OT hours. which was good to me. as i need money. but im afraid my PP report unable to finish it. So eventually i hesitate for that job. WTF am i doing. I feel like killing myself with all this shyt. What a busy life i have.
actually i planning to get my boy a iphone 4. i dun mind paying for him for that $200 shyt. but he really dislike iphone i dunnoe why. so no choice i shall buy him porter bag.=) and save up money for DSLR. hahas. yes is a must for me to do this two. my aim is to save at least $600 for him. but seriously speaking i feel like shopping. very long nvr buy clothes to pamper myself. hais. when will i get to see the money.
i miss hanson soo badly nowadays. he dun wish to come back to tpy anymore. =( nvm i shall stay over at bishan more often. =) being pamper by my sis and jiefu. =)
.Friday, August 27, 2010 ' 1:06 AM Y
I actually let her come back to my life again. I really hope i able to treat her as nice as last time. It might be hard for me to forget the past but i hope time will allow me to forgive everything abt her. I think she really change alot arhs. now i totally dun care abt any things, all i care is how to make use of every mins every sec. FACEBOOK will not occupy my life. So i decided either to work or go out with friend or spend time with my dog and family or of cause not forgetting my bf. Ya that is my life. If u find that I'm too boring by all means fuck off. It's my life. It's up to u whether u wan to be my friend and understand me if not jus fuck off and leave my life. I'm not like clubbing or chiongster. I prefer to be like stay at home or spend my money on those things that are much worth it. I dun find the point to drink and make urself drunk and vomit like hell. All i wish that u die sooner or get liver and brain damage. What for waste the money by alcohol which u know its harmful to ur body if drinking too much. So must as well use the money buy things that are good for ur health. LALALA. this is what i wan to tel my bf too. accept who i am, stop complaining. I'm like this. It nvr easy for me to change. So just accept it.
.Thursday, August 19, 2010 ' 10:10 PM Y
Seriously can't wait for finish ut3. Simply jus in need of money!!!! So pathetic jus got my pay 9 day work pay at expo which is like 600 plus, think I have use up all the money. Where the fuck I spend I also have no idea. Arghh. Gonna chionging work le. simply in need of money rawr. Bro wedding coming wanted pay for my own dress. Hopefully I could find
Something nice. I wasn't excited at all yet. all I know that I gonna sit at VIP table to acc grandma. Like a weird only. Last time still got friend acc me. Now I left with all those relative to acc me. See them also sian.
Upcoming program: the foo family chalet. (still thinking should I ask any of friend or I think I will organize another chalet jus my friend and dar friend soon) and my Ang family BBQ ( beach for kopi to swim his fav) :)
Sometime I dun understand why they like to criticize on my current classmate. I dun think they are like weirdo at all and they are like smart ass and nice people lahs. So please if u dislike them jus keep it to urself. They are nice and they like to do whatever thing also none of ur business jus let it be okay. I wish I won't hear Tat again before I verge my anger.
.Saturday, July 24, 2010 ' 2:47 AM Y
In life, when we gain something, we might lose something else. So no matter how u cherish the thing one day it will be gone for sure. As long as u did cherish it before, u will nvr regret it.
It simply hard for me to find a person to complain to and console me when I was like super down. Last time, when I was super down I will just look for a person, but now if I'm down I think the only things I can do is just keep it inside my heart. If I really unable to control it just burst it out. Just like water tap.
Sry I always nvr realize Tat I rely on u so much!!! Until one fine day, I losing u as a friend, I finally realize Tat u are the only person tat understand me and able to talk to. Anyway U are my best friend always :)
All the best!!!!!
