.Friday, January 25, 2008 ' 12:05 AM Y
hmmm. today woke up damn early coz. jie jie and hanson disturb mii. super stress and scare. have no appetite coz of tat and my stomach still not feeling well. den i start playing maple awhile. after tat mit mei wei, aloy and jas at traffic light. after tat we went to canteen to buy some drinks and food to eat. while waiting for result. mr seow sit beside mii and keep stressing us. i start crying when he say got 3 ppl go ite. i knew it was mii. but he keep say not mii. after a few mins. i cool down. and we walk to general office to take eagle award. but didn't manage to get yet. have to wait until we collected our result. siting at the hall make mii super stress and worry. omg. aloy get 3 a1s. hahas. so gd lahs. as wat i say i already expected this. after tat going to take result lerhs. its mine turn. when i see my first subject eng, my tears jus drop. i reali very sad. i knew this will happen to mii. i couldn't go any poly lerhs. all i can go is jus ite. i reali dun wish to go there. i dun wanna repeat oso. i reali dun noe wat shd i do. i'm sorry to all my family member. i know is my fault being so lazy. i know i shd have reali concentrate on my studies. i shd not always let small things to affect my mood of study. THIS IS NOT THE RESULT TAT I WAN. I REALI COULDN'T FACE THE FACT TAT I SCORE BADLY. I KNOW I CAN DO BETA DEN THIS. sorry everyone. hais. i reali dunnoe wat shd i do. shd i go ite or retake.? or both tgt.? i haven't make up my mind yet. all i noe is tat i wan to go poly. i wan life sci. hais. reach home play maple. keep find trouble and scold ppl. super bad mood. around 7 plus. jie they all reach home lerhs. all i can see on their face is they were very disappointed. this is not the result they wan to see. i think they believe tat i can score beta than this. but too bad. its jus the fact. it cannot be unchange. finally jie jie they all accept it and allow mii to go ite lerhs. but i have limited choices. hais. wat shd i do? i dun wanna take a risk coz i dun wan to waste another year jus to retake all the subject. i jus wanna faster finish study and get a gd certificate. as simple as tat. but i dun think i can lerhs. hais.thanks all the teachers and friends who hugs mii. i reali couldn't control my tears. thanks for all the encouragement. i hope we still can mit each other again. take care. miss all of u always.
sry dad, mum, bro and sis.
its all my fault for being so lazy.
its all my fault. i jus wan all of u to scold mii.
i reali hate myself for being so toopid. =(
