.Sunday, November 8, 2009 ' 11:46 PM Y
rawr. haing difficulty to study. not because i dun understand. but coz of the TV distract me. lols. i was studying at living room with the tv on and i study and study and play game. wat de hell. how to go in.? but think some how everything is inside my brain le lahs. worry my bio damn much. haven't do any research yet. keep concentrate on my chem and math. oh fuck. nvm lahs. tmr den start study with classmate again. hahas.
i feel like dying. its always so hard to make a decision. ya i indeed wanna meet, as i did not see them so much. but i still hesitating should i go this coming bbq. hais. gonna think and think again. i think i kind of scare being left out and feel so odd but its like i have to still meet up mahs. if not, i will not be able to see them le right. aiyo. why can't i made up my mind. isn't tat simple? why am i making it so complicated. all dar fault lahs. he always think very far now i also influence by him think soo much. rawr. shall think over again arhs.
sometime i think having a boyfriend is like more than enough in my life.
but i think is foolish, wat if dar dun wan me.
i might not have friend to spare me ears or so.
but i seem like do not worry so much at all.
i think my heart is like dun even care, just let it be maybe?
coz i always know that i got some good friend that always at my side.
am i right friends? i think i got quite alot of group of friend arhs.
but not sure are they my true friend? hahas. i shall test them arhs.
lols. just random thought again. hahas.
but i have confident with my r/s and have faith with my dar.
i think the day will nvr come. i think only lahs.
scar-ly is i change die arhs. lols. random again. lols.
