.Monday, March 15, 2010 ' 1:30 AM Y
hais. bad mood ytd. maybe not enough slp as working full shift and plus hungry. super frustrated and get so piss with small matter. hais. what a bad 22nd mnth anniversary with him. hais. dunnoe what to say.
today leh. feel so tired working morning shift and things keep bothering me yet i did not show it out. put on a fake smile whole day long until everything is settle. but at night, when meet them drink. as its lewis birthday, it really make me feel so down again. i feel sooo left out. even though he just right at my side yet i just feel that he like not there and he always just dun care me. i seriously hate being with him when his brother around. i feel so alone after awhile and i just feel like leaving alone that is why i rather slp rather than listen to their crap. although is bad to do that, but its like nothing to do and talk what. fuck it. =( hais. u just dun understand what are the impt things that i wan from u. and i dun think u bother to think. tolerate what u doing and pretend nothing is going on to make myself happy. i think that is the only solution i left.
